surrenderthepink

: surrenderepink; October 21st, 2009

Because ...

One
He is now the "it" place where famous bloggers reside. (So my Bro's Lecturer says)
Two
He gives me the option to categorize my thoughts.
Three
His name sounds sexier on thy mouth than livejournal.
Four
One needs to say Goodbye to sillyness and Welcome Late Twenties.

I am thus there. Follow me if you care. http://goldenapplesofthesun.wordpress.com/

One minute for thyself

: surrenderepink; October 8th, 2009

Current Music:: Nan Quan Mama - Mu Dan Jiang

Listening to: Mu Dan Jiang by Nan Quan Mama (I am trying to improve my chinese and increase diversity in life)

Reading and applying: One Minute for yourself by Spencer Johnson (Author of who moved my cheese)

Proudest achievement of the day: Have not switched on tv or binge on Ugly Betty DVDs

Disgusted with: How a small fry/paid employee/punk was 30 minutes late for class and dare to spread virus across the grapevine/ play the rebel card.

What I am really disgusted with: How I have yet to master the art of cucumber coolness/ not letting others affect me

Did you know that the biggest snake in the world, the anaconda swallows human victims whole and gives birth to footlong 'babies', 50 at a time?!

The Death Crawl, and the Point about Movies

: surrenderepink; September 7th, 2009

This last week was such a good week I rekindled my passion for training. Dianna asked me a question in class and as those words came out of her mouth they pieced together my broken confidence and my life was once again worth living. When I have those moments in class I can almost feel the sadness when it is time to depart. And the ephemeral quality about this entire engagement drives me for each training, to make it as memorable as possible.

I have watched this video 8 times since last thursday and still feel choked up at the same moment every single time.

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The Point about Movies

There are (rare) times when I think one should really watch certain great movies alone. Some movies I come out from leaves sth in my head (actually more often heart) that asks me to refrain from speaking after the credits roll and we walk out of the cinema because

1) Verbalizing what I feel about great movie very often makes my (right then) lucid emotion dissipate. Totally depriving me of the luxury to stay in the movie.

2) Whatever emotions I feet is specific to me and might not be in accord to whatever my partner feels. Worse still, I might have to hear another very differing opinion which sometimes dilutes my experience of the movie. Basically. Sometimes your movie partner is not worth it. (My bro should really be offended if he ever reads this)

The last movie got me to this other place where there was a need to indulge in the residue of emotion of a character or place or simply just be contained by a state of being. As though I have teleported to that scene and need to resolve sth. And for a moment I don't want to be me. In the reality. With really nothing much to resolve, or nothing much to be sad or overly excited about. For a while now, I havent had this feeling. Havent watched a remarkable movie that does not necessarily make me feel good, but gives me sth so strong to think about, sth to feel about, sth I do not already have in reality. A movie that I go back to when I face turbulance in my life. A movie with a strong theme and motive.

So, I really think that the point of a movie. Is the ability to take you away and really invest your heart in it. Nevermind mind.

Telling it as it is

: surrenderepink; September 3rd, 2009

My Bro has a thing for Australian men. And he would search for Huge Jackman's youtube interview videos and then bug me to watch them as he is funny. And charismatic. No doubt he is. And I do the same for Leonardo. It is just strange to have that passed down man to man style.

Lately there is a new man. Simon Baker. Who has made quite an impression even for me. I am watching The Mentalist every Tuesday. (Usually only do lousy lame ass emo series) So the other day casually I asked

"Would u turn gay for him?"

Bro: "Yar?"

Me: What abt him or Hugh Jackman?

Bro: Hmmm... That's difficult.

I am proud of my bro. What can I say.

Try

: surrenderepink; August 25th, 2009

To see beauty in a moment

To love thy curious neighbours. (even when he wears red shoes into thy house)

To find that new feeling in the old city.

To never be famished yet always moderately hungry enough for good food.

This week I have a huge headache and massive throat infection that leaves me with nothing much to say, also I love tennis even if I still havent got the perfect strokes. I realise how one falls in love with things (I always thought I can only fall in love with people) and how pple stay up for tennis matches. =)

OMG I love tennis. And I am finally going away this October for Yoga Detox Retreat at Koh Samui. Love L for being ever so onz for such things! I love to work out working out is great! I sound like a nuthead.

Take your successes as they come

: surrenderepink; August 23rd, 2009

Current Music:: Tanita Tikaram - I might be crying

It is Sunday morning before tennis and I am feeling a little blue and unsettled. Nevermind the successes I have had, I just can't let go of the one I let slip. I am hoping by the end of this entry my silliness slips from my grips.

Two days ago a stunt at the Girls Home made me feel like Michelle Pfeiffer after her first class in Dangerous Minds. I am determined to wring it this week ofcourse. And after speaking to colleague she told me the sacred belief I need to have. To take my successes as they come. Do not plan to achieve it. Do not have great expectations. Do not think u will make the most startling difference. Do be contented with what u can get.

Sometimes I don't know who I think I am.

Now I am sure this will pass and rank low in the grand scheme of things. In other worlds this probably ranks higher. For 2 years I couldn't find the CD inside all 3 Jay Chou albums I have (the only chinese albums I have) and was contemplating whether I should re-purchase them. Somehow I found new songs to listen to but none of them ever scratched that Jay itch I have. This morning while checking out oldies on my rack, and deciding whether I should throw away Janet Jackson's album (then I decided not to out of respect for Michael)...I opened it up and saw a total of 4 CDs in the pocket! =)

Auguries of Innocence

: surrenderepink; August 14th, 2009

Current Music:: Rent - I should tell you

To see a World in a Grain of Sand,
And a Heaven in a Wild Flower,
Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand,
And Eternity in an hour.

William Blake

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On Wednesday as a surprise to L I brought her to see Rishi in his performance as John Procter in The Crucible. His performance was stellar. For me it was very painful to watch. I told him unless it was sth cheerful and light, he should expect my absent from his hard core ones. This man has the passion to fill the seven seas. With this concoction of awe and respect support him I will.

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In other worlds I have bid my specs goodbye.
And only you will understand when I say sometimes I miss the clarity behind the bluriness when I was somewhat blind.

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Make that change

: surrenderepink; August 3rd, 2009

Today my Bro tells me he shares the same Birthday as Michael Jackson.

About more than a month ago when it happened many friends texted me on that day and told me the news. At that time I was battling a severe bout of alcohol poisoning after having drunk a water fountain, a shot of tequilla, vodka, and B52. (Wasn't thinking) I was puking my guts out and really wanted to die so I really didn't care who died and how sad it was. And up till now I havent even watched the Tribute yet.

I avoid and feel strong disapproval about reports in the news that has been on E!, so many entanglements that are irrelevant to the legacy he has left behind. Yet we got to admit. No one upon being asked abt their musical preferences will mention MJ. (Perhaps just my chum L. The only person I know who really know his lyrics and been to his concert) I really need to ask God why he took him away so quick. I am sure he was going to rock the world again with new moves/old moves. Who cares.

Last week I purchased The Dangerous Tour DVD and after watching it today (twice) I gotta write this post. Because no one else makes at least 10 audiences faint every minute on the show, no else makes people cry their hearts out (looking like they are willing to die for you) from beginning to end. No one else balances the sincerity of singing about Healing the world or Making a change, at the same time creates magic dance moves which involves crotch grabbing that has and shall continue to revolutionalize dance. (He totally started popping and beat boxing) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3tRW8mlcjek&feature=related

Most importantly no one creates Neverland and invites sick children to reside in it. He knows what we need.

Michael Jackson, you are The King. You rock my world and will remain timeless for many of us. Now I will do whatever it takes to make you linger in my world. First being to grab a copy of TIME. You really should too.

Dear LoveBird

: surrenderepink; August 3rd, 2009

Although you have been with us for only a day, we liked you a lot.

Maybe God really wants you to meet him and all. So you should really feel excited about that.

We will see you again I am sure. If He asks you what is your name - you can tell him it's Hope.

Love,
Us

Say I

: surrenderepink; August 2nd, 2009

These days I feel like a loner, a thug, a pencil running out of her mark. It could be PMS, cause after a long walk in the park and examining all the colours of the flowers and be ear-brushed by flying birds things become the flowing water.

I say flying birds and you go duh and there goes your ignorance because there are so many birds that don't really fly.

Instead of a pet rabbit Bro decided to buy a Lovebird after seeing neighbour's pet that loves people and has a perpetual smile. I say a Bird is a prelude for a baby/dog/cat. So lets roll. And here we go.

All it does is sleep for now as it is only about 1 month old. When u are talking abt a living thing both me and Bro are filled with healthy doze of fearfulness. And we keep asking each other: "How do people even have babies when we cannot even handle a bird!?"

Today like any Sunday - packed to the brim. Did sth for the first time and stepped foot in Istana. WHat impressed Ling and I the most was the display of umbrellas at the wide field.

I took so many more it came from all these students around Singapore. Really cool effort.

The other day while teaching in class my sec school student Joshua (who is an intelligent slash negative brat) says this to me: "Not everyone is chirpy like you Miss Z!", after I spoke to him abt positive attitudes. And being me, I launched into a full fledge speech/preach abt how Happiness is a choice. When I am in class and doing what I love most do you think sulking/whinning/complaining/being negative will be an ideal choice for a class?!? Yadayadayada. And ofcoz after he got shocked and all I toned it down by sharing a fitting story with them. In my life there are times when I come across people who could unknowingly display jealousy to a certain level of happiness you could be potraying. Actually I am guilty of that myself. Incidentally Bro is running a 'Choose Happy' Campaign in SP and has been impressing the hell out of his panel with the content he delivered. =)

So if u are reading this, choose happy today.

August is here and quite unknowingly, I have scrapped off two things on my goals List! The magic of writting things down!

1. See without specs
2. Own and love a pet!

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